b- Captain America is American

hey dial--

I'm currently laying on the couch in the living room, petting Maggie and thinking about where my clothes are that I need to pack. my nails are painted this cute, winter gray and my ring fingers are sparkled and specked with little diamonds [good choice]. I'm thinking of Provo and  you and school and boys and friends and RM friends and hunter and missing home and blah blah blah and you get it. I'm thinking about everything all at once.

I feel like I have grown up so much since you have left, but there will forever be that old familiar drowning voice in my head begging my body to do more, to help more people, to connect with more people, to study more, to care more, exercise more, pray more, do everything more. I just get overwhelmed!

as corny/lame/pathetic/desperate as this sounds: weight was lifted from me knowing that I have you back. that after long days, failed tests, emotional strain, that I will be able to lay on your bed and eat Trader Joe's treats as we talk about CPB & TCZ & JJM & TPH & RRHS & VRHS & PHL. it's such a blessing. you are such a blessing. I read this entire blog again and we rule. ya know?  we have grown up and stayed consistent and progressed. I'm proud of us! we are going to be alright, ya know that? come what may and The Wonder Twins will prevail!

know that I love you.
know that I will forever just miss you because of that 18 month hiatus.
know that I am excited to live in the same town again. [its been awhile homie]
know that you are apart of my favorite memories.

go dragons!
xoxo
b/Serena/schmelly/BFF

n-number one

so we live in the same town again and you would think i wouldn't still miss you like crazy all of the time. but surprise, i do. we see each other sometimes but is not often enough. sometimes i think about high school and how we spent a good 85% of our time together and it just makes me sad. i mean i love my friends a lot, i really do. but there is no friendship like ours. and sometimes i wish we could run away. just you and me. back to a time when we had no responsibilities and too much money. cause those were the good ole days.

high school was a perfect time. we could skip school and run away to downtown or just to my moms bed. now we have college and friends and social lives to worry about. and i love my life dearly. but sometimes i wish i could have one day of 2010 back--preferably before my dad died, but i'll tae what i can get.

i guess what i am trying to say is thanks for being my perfect other half. i am grateful that even if i don't have you constantly by my side, i will always know you are my number one.

xoxo
n

n- we did it

Remember last August when I said that we only had to be apart for eight months and then it'd be over? Well guess what, we do it! We're almost there. 8 days. That's all we have left. And then we're done. Amazing right? I never thought we would make it this far but we did. We're at the end. And I think that these past eight months have brought us closer than ever. I will never again take you for granted. I will never again take advantage of our friendship. Because I know what's its like to not have you close and I don't want to live like that. Ever.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. I really think its true. Because right now I am quite fond of you. And all I want is to hit up the mall with you. And just spend some quality time. I am so do so excited for out road trip to Dallas. It is going to be perfect. We are going to have the best summer. Two adults living life to the fullest. I'm gonna go to singles ward and find us some boyfriends. And then in August we will go to Mexico together and then we will part for a few weeks while I go to Asia and you pack up and move to Utah. Then I'll meet you back in Provo and we will start our new lives together as college girls. Together. Taking on the world.

Sounds pretty great, huh?

It's going to be great

Miss you bay

Love you more than life

See you in eight days <3

xoxo
n

n-25 days

I miss you b. I really do. And boy am I excited to move home. Cause like I love college, especially BYU, but like its just not the same without my #1 wing man..next year is going to be the best. And so will this summer, summers are always my favorite and I have a feeling that this one is going to rival '08 if ya know what I mean! We're talking tan, blonde, and svelte. Like we've never been before.

Time to prepare. You ready? Cause I am.

Her remember that time you came to utah? That was pretty great.

Basically I miss you. A lot. So you better get ready. Cause like this is about to get so real. Prepare

xoxo
n

PS have you got the new blogger app? It's pretty great you should try it cause like it makes blogging just so easy!

b-soon

As I get closer to graduation I keep thinking of things that are happening "soon". Many of which I am greatly looking forward to. Others are an odd reality. Things that are happening soon make the week go by faster, that's why I like to look forward. I also like to escape the reality of the fact that I am stuck in Limbo with people I don't particularly care for.

Things that are happening soon:
#SPRINGBREAK2012
Diet Challenge
Friday
You finally coming home
Mormon Prom
Summer
Graduation
Hopefully me getting a boyfriend??
My hot bod I want
Living on my own
Living near you
Going to college
Being self-reliant

These things are scary and daunting, but I am excited and anxious at the same time. I am glad I have you and it's comforting to know that.

xoxo
b

n- midterms or Cayman? #youdecide2012

you are going to the Cayman Islands in 18 hours... that somehow just does not sound fair! this blog is probably going to get quite a bit of attention while you're gone cause if i can't talk toy ou, then i'll just talk to it. her. him. it.

i have three mid terms to take today and tomorrow...it's not gonna be pretty. but once they're done school will get easy for awhile.

i seriously cannot wait till you move up here. i think about how excited i am everyday. and it's not just because i want to live in the same city as you again..but i am just so excited for you to experience college life. being an adult. going to BYU. all of it is so fun! and you are going to love it so much. you will thrive in Provo if you allow yourself to(which you will).

SB2012 is going to be the best week of your life. so prepare yourself. i am lining up the boys. i am lining up the parties. i am lining up the megabed. it will be epic (i hate that word)

i didn't want to go to Calculus to day...so i am sitting in Geology with Mel. we're paying really close attention

this is me missing you

also, you should know, yesterday was highbunhumpday and my hair was in a high bun all day without any bobby pins..i know right? there are few people that i know would appreciate that..well two: you and Elsye. she appreciated it so now it is your turn to. also i played a whole basketball game and didn't have any boby pins...operation grow out the bangs is quite a success so far(: 

miss you 

love you

have fun with my Happy Baby.

xoxo

n

n- today i'm needy

im sitting on mega bed. listening to brake up to make up. i cant sleep. i havent talked to you all day and i don't like it. yesterday i almost had an anxiety attack on the basketball court. it was really scary. but also it make me feel, which doesn't happen very often. so it was a nice change.

i am making a list in my head of places i would rather be and here it is:

• Halcyon
• international waters
• 716 Paradise lane
• Taco C
• incog with you and Jeremih
• Bitt Ln
• with maggie
• the TPH
• the bean
• hey cupcake
• Mexico
• running across parmer like a little old farmer
• RR Express game. 

that's my list. i miss you. sundays are hard. everyday is hard. 

i'm sorry im so needy. but thanks for being my best friend. you are literally the best. 

xoxo

n

P.S. thanks for that surprise party you threw me. it was perfect